Night #3 this is getting out of control. Im beginning to think that its a craving for attention but im scared to assume that. There is nothing more I can honestly do. I pray that this is only a silly game meant to expose the fool that I am, because if its not i failed. This is ridiculous and i shouldn't even be put in this position.

And once again im finding myself in the same position as a couple weeks ago. Trying to help the same person... im getting a headache. After tonight im taking action. I cant do this anymore, im finding help for them.

Well once again here I am posting a journal for the fist time in almost 4 months. So much has happened in these 4 months. Well first of all I chose my college.. Im going to Milwaukee. I just hope its the right choice. I just have not decided whether im not ready to graduate or not....

My life took an unexpected turn not to long ago when I had to try and talk a friend out of suicide. I was able to but now this person is about to ask for more trouble and apparently im the only one who they talk to bout their problems. I honestly don't know what to do. Its stressing me out...

Well I hope everyone is doing ok. im just... i dont even know right now. Just thought i should update.

Until I decide to write again... see ya

Ive been really inactive lately. With school and cross country its been tough. But anyway lets see here whats new. I am in the midst of my last High School Cross Country season. I have not yet decided if I want to continue in college or not. I would just take up so much of my time. It may come down to if i get tuition or not for it. Speaking of colleges... Its coming up fast. I pretty much have my choices narrowed down to 3. All a need to do now is visit them and see which one I like best. That will happen soon.
In other news our band is doing well. Although we haven't been extremely active we've played a few more gigs. We were asked to play at our homecoming which was really fun. We even got asked to play at this concert hall in Omaha but we declined cuse were not quite ready for that. We barely have time to practice right now. Anyway that's all from me so...
See Ya

BTW: Im really sorry that ~Whalelover4ever left DA. He was one of my best friends on here and I completely didn't even realize he left cuse Ive been so in active.

Done interning at Union Pacific but I left my mark. This photo of mine has recentally been featured on the front page of the Union Pacific employee's website.

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